Breaking The Cycle
You know how there’s nothing wrong, but sometimes you’re trying to deal with some issues in your life and in your head, and maybe you’ve been fighting a cold and so you’re tired all the time, and it’s probably not depression from any textbook definition, but it’s more like a funk? And you’re in it and trying to get through it, but you’re head’s a little cloudy from the cold and from a lack of sleep and even though the holidays are over, you’re maybe a still a little sad about the family who is gone, and a little disappointed in some of the family still around, but you miss them all anyway, and you also have all your crap still in suitcases from the trip up north and really, it’s just one more thing to face? Usually, you’d break it down and address the head-crap piece by piece, until maybe you’re not 100% yourself but at least you feel like you’re making progress. But all the other stuff just keeps pushing and pushing down on your brain, and you find yourself calling people and trying to explain what’s wrong, but you hardly know yourself, so you babble and try as hard as you can not to cry.
The best words in the world, right then, are, “Hang on, I’ll be there soon.”
(That was a couple of days ago. The second best words were said to me just seconds ago, when he was curled into my shoulder and I turned my head to cough the other way – because I am STILL not kicking this cold – and he said, “That’s okay – you can cough on my head.”)